Well if anyone is still reading this I just wanted to let you know that I haven't been updating this anymore and probably won't because I use the one on myspace. If you are still reading this and would like me to keep posting on this leave me a comment other wise I will just use myspace. If you have myspace mine is www.myspace.com/sweetc211 and you can read my blogs on there.

$600 Books +

$300 PDA +

$200 PDA software for class

$100+ nursing supplies for class

= Caroline is broke

One of the major benefits of SIUE was renting my books I defiantly didn't realize how much all that stuff costs. Well it has been a while since I have updated. And for one thing when I was reading my last entry to find out what I have told you all and what I haven't I realized that I said I am not at sophomore status at Blessing. What I meant to say was that I am at sophomore status. I am really excited because I  get to take classes that will actually have stuff to do with my major. But I am also really scared because I am starting a new school and I am not sure what all to expect. One because I have absolutely no idea where anything is or how a lot of stuff works, plus things are a lot different since QU isn't a state school. Well along with starting a new school I am learning lots of new stuff at Hy-Vee. I learned to open film a while ago and then last week I learned to open the postal machine. It is still a little difficult but I like the part about going in early and getting done early cause I hate closing and working til 10pm. So I don't think that it really hit me until the past week or so that I am not going to back to SIUE. I keep telling myself that if it was God's plan to come back to Quincy then I would because I figured ya know He knows what is going to make me happy. (that's what everyone tells me anyway). I can honestly say that for the couple weeks I have been miserable. It seems like yet again I thought things were finally starting to go great when I got in the nursing classes and then it seems like one thing goes right and two things go wrong. Not to mention the whole living at home isn't going the greatest either. My biggest fears of coming home are coming true. Things between me and the rest of my family are starting to go back to the way they use to be. The biggest is the problem between me and my dad and me and my sister. My sister and I have always had our differences and probably always will I just get tired of fighting with her over stupid stuff all of the time. For those of you that know me know that my dad travels a lot and it seems like every time he is home and I see him he is yelling at me for something. And if he isn't yelling at me then we barely talk. It just aggravates me because it was never like that before I left for college 2 years ago. It use to be that me and mom were always fighting and now we are a lot closer granted we still have our differences, but nobody is perfect right? I just don't get it. Alright enough of that. I sometime feel that all I do is vent on this but sometimes it seems like the only place I can. Well other than that not a whole lot is going on. I have to take a CPR class on Sat for 5 hours which should be fun. Well that's all for now. Please keep my in your prayers that things get better. I would greatly appreciate it.

Summer Update!

So I decided to update even though things haven't really changed  a whole lot. Class is almost over only two classes and one we are just handing in our exam. Even better is I have an A in the class. The whole school thing is still really confusing and frustrating to me. I am hoping that I will get answers soon. I am signed up to be a wheatie on TEC in July so hopefully I can get some peace about the whole thing soon. I can't believe that summer is almost over it feels like it just started. Ever since I started college life seems to be flying by. But it will definantly be nice to be done with school soon and only have to worry about working. Well thats all for now, maybe I will update later.

p.s. Please pray for Josh and Noel they have to go for their yearly check up and everytime they have gone Josh has ended up in the hospital. He hasn't been in the hospital for about 8 months now and were hoping he won' t have to go to back in.

Well I got out of class really early so I decided to finally update with what has been going on this summer. So far it has been pretty crappy. I don't really feel like I have had a summer. I work, go to class, study for class, babysit Josh, Noel, and Zach. Do get me wrong I love babysitting, and I love the people I work with at HyVee with the exception of some of the customers that have been really cranking lately. I am just so wornout. I feel like I have had no summer. Plus, on top of barely getting any sleep. I have been confronted with yet again another decision on where I want to go to school in the fall/spring.  With in the past month I have had about 5 people tell me that I should go through JWCC program because it is more hands on than QU and QU you don't get hands on until you are done with the program. So then after hearing that I was all set on going to JWCC. Then BAM.. I got smacked in the face by being told that they are all full for the summer but they might be opening but they still have a huge waiting list. Then I have had about 3 more people tell me that I should go through Blessings program. How am I supposed to know where I am supposed to go to school next year. I keep getting these "signs" saying that I need to just wait and have faith that I will end up where I am supposed to go but I am tired of waiting I just want to know. Why couldn't I have gotten into SIUE's nursing program and things would be teen times easier. I am sure I was meant to come home for a reason, but I have been really misserable ever since I came home. I have fun when I actually have time to go out with my friends, but when I am home everything that I thought would happen is. Especially the part about my sister and I never getting a long. I don't know if I will be able to take much more. I have thought about moving out, but then she would get what she wants and there is no way I can afford it.  Next subject, is I got asked to be onJuly's TEC as a wheatie. Which I am not sure if I want to cause like I have said before I don't really like being a wheatie, but I was thinking maybe I would try it again to see if I would like it. parents are the spiritual directors of the wheat team. Don't get me wrong I would love to spend a TEC weekend with my parents, but I am a mess on those weekends and I don't really want my parents to see me like that. I don't know maybe I am just being weird about it. Oh and Nichole and Whit you should so go on the weekend cause that would be awesome. Anyway if anyone has read this far thanks for caring. and if you have any advice it is very appreciated and prayers that i found out where I am supposed to go to school next year very soon. Cause I am going insane. Oh I can't wait until tom. because after I get off work we are going to go to Spring Lake to celebrate Joshies 3rd Birthday. I am so excited. I really think this is all Happy 4th Everyone. Be safe and have lots of fun.

Prayer request: For my cousin who is having what the doctors think is something wrong with her kidneys. and for a guy a work with whose mom had a brain anurism(pretty sure I spelt that wrong) that she can recover quickly and that the family gets some peace.